It depends on what exactly you're looking for. You don't need to learn proofs to learn calculus. Unfortunately, I don't have any proofs-based books to recommend (I don't remember anymore what I used in undergrad).

However, if proofs aren't as important to you: You can find calculus textbooks aimed at high schoolers. Where I'm from, for example, it is common to take a calculus course at the end of high school, and you can find textbooks for this online. Also it may be worth checking your local library. Some non-proof-based resources that I know of online are CLP (try CLP1 first) and Paul's Online Math Notes.