Where do you find the time to do extracurricular reading?
There are so many books I want to study out of, not just maths but other things too, but even on normal days when my sleep disorder doesn't fuck up my schedule (which should be getting fixed before next academic year), I get so exhausted studying by myself that I can only do so much (typically ~2 hrs) at a time, which makes my pace ponderous, and then even after switching topics to keep things fresh my brain overheats and I just have to not think for hours at a time to recover.
And I compare myself to other people, who seem to be able to read tons and tons of stuff, while I'm genuinely wondering if I'll get through my whole reading list (even just as it stands today) before I die, or whether I'll be able to read quickly enough to even do my master's dissertation in general relativity (which is not taught at my uni) two years from now.
What do I do about it?
P.S. I'm immune to caffeine, which I've discovered the hard way, unless your suggestion is to neck *twelve* pills of the stuff in one go instead of six lmao.